27 july 2019

Ruthie found an old burp cloth I saved and had to reenact.

Annie and I spent the evening and night together. She had a sleep study done because of her snoring and will need her tonsils out. One request was to go to the Denny’s that we pass by every day to therapy. Ruthie was so sweet and happy for Annie to get to go, even though she really wanted a pancake breakfast too. Annie kept wanting to call her from the restaurant to tell her things like, no they don’t have the puppy pancakes and that we found a tick in her ear.

No greens at this table! Mac n Cheese with a side of goldfish. She made me laugh so much.

Before going to the study, I needed to pick up some sunglasses because mine mysteriously broke the day before. When asked who did it, they stood side by side and swore nothing. I commended their solidarity. These were Annie’s choice.

All hooked up.

I was telling Ryan when we got home how much she’s changing. At Denny’s she was the bubbly, full of life and chatter Annie. And as she got tired she turned into a calm, all-knowing, quietly arrogant adult-child. She was scratching one of the wires and then I tried to help and she calmly said, “How about we just leave it alone.” I laughed and said, “What?” “How about you and I just leave it alone for now.” I felt like a child. It made me proud and sad all at once. They say once her tonsils out to expect a growth spurt because the growth hormone usually spreads while sleeping and once she gets good sleep, it’ll help her size. I guess I can’t keep her pint-sized forever.

15 July 2019

Cousin Beth and family came into town and we scurried up to KC to catch sight of them. It was also mom’s 73rd birthday. We sang Happy Birthday to her several times that day and with each rendition it got more and more painful. It’s funny to watch how people react when they’re uncomfortable.

A couple Gertie moments. Last night I was about to put her to bed and had her do her goodnight rounds. She said I love you, Daddy when prompted. So I turned her to me and said “I love you Gertie, can you say I love you mommy?” She looked at me and slowly said “I love you…” then started chuckling hard and finished with “daddy.” Ryan and I looked at each other and wondered if she was making a joke. So I made a big deal – “not daddy! Say I love you mommy! I love you Gertie….” then looked at her to respond and she could hardly spit the words out she was laughing so hard “I love you DADDY!!”

Anyway, these are small moments that I know I took for granted with the other two but give me so much hope and happiness. It reminds me that there’s a little mind in there, that she’s not a task or a therapy evaluation sheet needing to be filled out. It was just a good reminder is all.

Then this morning, Ruthie played a version of hide and go seek for 45 minutes with G in her walker all over the house. They were laughing hysterically. When she finally plopped down, she said “shoes”. So I started to taken off and while she was laying there, she said “I love Rupie.” With a big ole smile on her face.

elderly ryan and me.

12 July 2019

Ruthie has started to like clothes and fashion and combing through store mags that come through the mail and then circling what she likes. The other day she saw a jean jacket and was dead set on it.

So I said we could go thrifting this past Wednesday to find one. We’ve agreed that she will pay half for clothes and all for toys, now that’s she’s earning an allowance. And also, I just can’t stomach shopping unless it’s at garage sales or thrift stores.

First stop was Goodwill and we found this cute one for $2.50. We squealed pretty much the whole way home that she only technically had to pay $1.25 when the one in the magazine was $50. She’s worn it every day since.

Speaking of her allowance, I think we’ve finally found a chore chart that works for both her and Annie. This is our second week and it has been great. $1 a day may seem like a lot (does it? I have no idea) but it’s worth it to have them put away the silverware twice a week. I should probably add in “brush mom’s hair” though.

10 July 2019

Still trying to get those beach pics up, but I need to remember this one thing. I heard Annie get up about 5am and run into the kitchen. After a few minutes, she ran back to bed. A half hour later, she climbs into bed and tells me that she thought she heard someone squirting whipped cream from a can in the kitchen and wanted some, but when she got back into bed she realized it was just Ruthie snoring.